Hello to new lover here ♥

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Just reminded that 90days to one of my close friend leaving for overseas study. And it'll be for like..3 years?? WHATTTTTT )))))): i haven had friends leaving my boundaries like that before.. It feels like losing a friend temporary.. ): Its so sad to sometime thinks that we're mostly living to please ppl around, & thats the part where we started to change & lose our real self..Quoted from one of my friend ' True friends accept for who you are'.Really,treasure friends esp those who truly concern & be there for you when you needed someone in life.I really cant imagine anyone could live life without friends?Its like life without meaning.

NEW WORKPLACE!(:

ATTACHEMENT STARTED.78 MORE DAYS LEFT.HAHAHAHA
thats what my friend who worked w me said..
so well.....i cant see that my future will lie in the warehouse..
because even my own office table is in the warehouse! LOLOLOL
im stuck in the four wall of levels of pallets & boxes..for 3 mths.
with continuous more math & more excels!
WOOHOOO.WHAT A LIFE
so far still surviving because i'd so far a not bad supervisor here..
only that he's even more impatient than us when doing those math.
he just roared at the screen today. HAHAHAHA

I WILL SURVIVE~

♥

I miss Lifen! Just received her msg again & im literally touched. I guess no one would bother bout my dreams in life like she do, thou i only mention it to her once randomly during our hospitalized times.. She always made me felt so motivated about what i wanna acheive... depite facing the realistic life. even that we're not v close,she still hopes i could acheive what i want & be happy. I feel so very appreciated thou its just a few messages sent to me lor. I MISS HERRRRRR!! cant wait to book & meet her one of the days this month! On the contary,feeling nostalgic browsing the hospitalized photos. sucha bitter-sweet memories..

overdueeeeee!

Yes!Overdue photos & posts! short term expo fair job w cheryl & sinying!:D my job,to sort the booooooks!

Mum is damn sweet to bought me a cake on my bday,

thou i insist of not wanting anything.(:

PORK CHOP RICEEEEE!

went back to holland w sinying ystday actually to our ex-working place

& to 回味 the food from this fierce aunty!

but to our surprise......the 'fierce' aunty actually rmb us when we return ystday,

& she even smile & laughed talking to us

which made me feel guilty for what i used to think of her.

very touched when she said she rmb-ed us.Really....((:

Frankly,im in a dead & want-to-sleep mode while posting this.

I've no idea why do i insist in posting it now.LOL

If memory was a paper,i would wanna burn them all.

"I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I haven’t known what’s wrong with me for awhile, but I know that something is. I never feel happy anymore… Nothing can make me happy enough. And if something does, well, it’s stolen from me almost right away. It’s like there’s something in the world that says, oh, shit, you can’t be happy. You’ve already been happy for a day, that just can’t happen. It’s like there’s something set against it." -tumblr

Have anyone ever feel that way too?
Its like there's something always sucking up my happiness.
I can never say out when im feeling content,bliss w life,
cos i know the nxt moment it wouldnt be the same.
Will it also work if i were to rant about the sucky life im experiencing now?

I guess what happen recently wakes me up alot.
Its like being pulled down from the content feeling i'd for life,
to a living nightmare.
& i know it'll be a upcoming great disappointment , esp to mom..
I wanna comfort myself , saying excuse like its just another error in life..
but the fact that its not an happen-&-go error..i cant do it.
Nice enough,it also wakes me up to realize how much i'd lost..
I know its too late to make up anything but still.
Im really sorry to whoever i'd done wrong & left you.
Im sorry to whoever im going to disappoint .&
Im sorry to the life thats given to me & i dident treasure it enough.

Hopefully things would make it out smoothly soon.
PEACEEEE &LOVEEEE!(:

Im sucha letdown.

what should i do? who could help me?
Im standing here at one corner of the earth ,
thinking im not even worth to be created nor to be fortunate than those who's not.
Now i understand why ppl wishing they could return to when they're young.
As human grew older , more problems were to come & be faced.
Where do all the smile,optimistic thoughts & good things that happens go?

I really really really wish i could go back to when im 5 & restart my life again,
even it to mean to go thru all the obstacles i faced for the past years.
I badly wanna correct the mistakes.
I regretted for all i'd done that ruined the life i'd now God...i really do.

Is it too late?

& it starts now.

I dont know if i could do it.
but i'll see how it goes from now till 1 month.
no snacks.
no mayo when buying subway.
no fast food.
no soft drinks.
no supper.

NO MAYO AND CHEESE FOR SUBWAY?!! T.T
This is gonna be a very hard battle..
Its like im facing a upcoming Olvl.

PERSERVERE.

kthxbye.posting again when there's result !

DREAM HIGH!

Was obessed with this korean drama recently , Dream High.
Intially i dident thought it was nice.
But till episode 8 , it started to tickles my attention.
& now my twitter is spammed with Dreamhigh,
my playlist is playing the OST. LOLOLOLOL .

I dont know what.
but recently to what had happened to Japan..
through mummy stories bout one of her dead close ones..
I started to feel how fortunate im in a safe place,placed by God.
suddenly fearing there'll be ppl around me leaving me..
but at the same time not knowing how shuld i treasure everyone ard me?

i think im being sentimental now again... -.-
kthxbye.

RANDOM

A good Hot tea + piece of sinfully cold cherry-top creamy cheese cake ,
with a good book alongside with the cafe soothing jazz music playing.
Perrrrrrfect Weekend.

I always imagine myself doing that in the states ,

cos they'd perrrrfect weather to made ppl sit down & relax.

If only SG has colder weather , & not so hush-hush....

ANYWAY.

have a good weekend ahead !

pace e di amore ❤

My Mistake.

Seriously.Why am i still being hold down by the 'past' after so long?
it seems like i still cant accept the cruelity of life and people all this while,
& its time to change that damn naive mindset.

I cant imagine myself still living for the past even when i'm 50..
My life would be the story of 'The Frog In The Well'
never being able to see the beauty of the world cos of those damn past?!
NOOOOOOO way! >:(

soooooooooooooooo.
Let go those who dont worth your waiting,
Forgive those who once hurt you.(tryinggggg...)
& take revenge on those damn human who lied/backstab & bully you..
HAHAHAHA. just saying!-applies to above sentence (:
Is either you rule ur life , or the life rule you.
I'd come to a conclusion to myself that being always nice is not the option in life.
Some nothing-to-do human would still hurt,upset us along the way.
& Life gonna still be unfair at times for as long as we live.

Who says being human is lucky? Bang the wall.

& hey..

1 month 2 days of holiday left.

Now counting down to the days of my attachement

& when attachement starts , you'll see me ranting when's holiday.LOL
Hope pretty march would treat me niceeee :D

& the few sketches i actually randomly drew.

There's one more actually , but the pic just gone berserk ):

If only i could concentrate in studies like how i did in drawing.

The moment the pencil's in my hand & i started to draw ,

it's like the whole world dosent matter .

Its like time stops & all i could see & feel is the drawing i gonna sketch out.

Miss learning art !

JB!

#JBTOASIA TWITTER PARTEEEHHHH !
i went for autograph session , car-chasing session for other idol,
but not fantalk .
So the moment you saw ur fav idol infront of ur screen moving ,LIVE ,
you just gone berserk. even that he's not talking much or just sitting there ..
It like we're all retards sitting infront of the sceen for an hr.
He did talk , so its a little like webcam.
Just that he wouldnt reply u face to face but reply fans twitter qns.
& NO. HE DIDENT ANS ANY OF MY DAMN QNS. *instantly emos*
but i forgive cos FIRSTLY, its 2am over there.
SECONDLY, there's too many fans qns..
& THIRDLY, he wouldnt care even i dont forgive him for not ans-ing.
SO I DECIDED THAT I SHOULD ACCEPT THE FATE.
& i felt sorry to whoever had their twitter spammed by me.
IN ANYWAY , i know u all hate this but JOEBROOKS RAWKKKK!\m/
Its the new era of JB baby~

HOLIDAY~

Pretty much sum up what i'd done this week.

so finally.had Seoul Garden w a few classmates! :DD

& finally fulfill my Kbox crave as well .HEHEHE
ohwait.For the first time,i picked JAYCHOU songs. so i tot i should take down this epic moment.

& took up a short term job.

gg to primary school to sell science toys.

& basically,i'd to memorise all the pricings down there.(insane)

& seriously.Kids nowadays are RICHASS.

they had like 50bucks when they're just PRIMARY SCHOOL?!!

even that its a weekly or monthly,ITS SO MUCH!

i only had 1buck back then....emo.

SEE THAT ERA DIFFERENCE...... totally crazy.

& these silly kids actually anyhow spent lor.Felt bad even to collect their money x.x

Practically been using my holiday quiteee...fruitful.

clean my room yesterday thou! half sparkling clean! :D

needa do what i wanna do before attachement starts!

dont know to feel excited or scared.

YAY

kissssssgoodbye to year2! :DDDD

1 MORE YEAR TO ENDUREE! :>

But i feels like i'd finished poly this time round..

thou its 8months times till i returned to school. HEHEHE

cant wait for new workplace , new enviroment to adapt , all over again!

Been wondering how to spend my 1month holiday................

erm.i kinda miss school now. hehe :D

No , i was wrong. i hadent change at all .

I still choose to keep things to myself.

still as fumbling ,sensitive & not confident with ownself like before.

still only expressive through writting & music.

still cant put away those long ago past , hatred

& those memories, feelings that i knew would made me upset.

It funny you know.

I know where my problem lies, but i cant seem to kick them off?

I know i know..

in life you can choose to live happily or saddening , why choose sad over happy,righhhhhhht?

But you know , being happy is really not easy.

Life just wants you to feel the bitterness to gain happiness in return.

ahhhhhhh. i'm being so random now.

But i just wanna pour out the random feelings somewhere now.

bear with me.hehehe (:

I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf...
"no, no, no, no..."

To lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(Who you are)x11

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!
The more I try the less is working yeah yeah yeah
'Cause everything aside me screams, "no, no, no, no..."


One of the best lyric & song written.
JESSIE J FTW!

Marking the end of year 2 !

Us being rebellious!
went to CWP instead of doing ppt ! HAHAHA!

Perhaps because i've not been sch for the first 2 weeks,

this semester seemed to fly super fast!

cant express how much i love being in this class !

i guess they are the reason why im starting to love school now.. :D

The feeling whereby you feels happy upon seeing all of them ,

even thou u felt utterly sian inside that there's lesson. ((:

Dident had a whole class photo thou , cos most ponten on last day ):

On the other hand, i dont know why.

but i kept meeting & bumping onto old friends recently! hahaha!

Even thou its a short period of catchup,

like shihui called me to have a short chat,

meeting shiyun at end of lesson & went home together :D

& bumping onto Jojo & being overwhelmed by her super friendliness,

i appreciates all :DD

Did i mention i also bump onto santhea & tingwei otw home just now...

WHO'S NEXT.. HAHAHA. x)

missed my girls too.....

i was lining up for bus that time to school ,

when i suddenly wished my girls were here with me ):

if you all are reading this, catchup sooooooon ? HEHEHE (:

Shall end here & back to my ut3 revision T.T

F.I.G.H.T.I.N.G ! ^^